it's almost the new year

as in, in two days.... how insane is that???

but, i'm back on my wagon. the weight loss one. not the school one. don't remind me of the school one. i've been having too much fun wedding planning and not going to school. you see, one of my dearest, super bestie friends got engaged in the past two weeks, and is getting married in a month. super crazy! she wants her mamma to be able to be there with her, so we're all along for the ride! please pray for my dear friend and her family.

while i love her, and am super happy that we found her the MOST AMAZING dress yesterday, this is not the point of my post. sorry, sweetheart!

for Christmas, i got the Wii Fit Plus from my fabulous in-laws. and, i got Wii Dance Party 2 from my fabulous husband. don't worry. they weren't trying to tell me something. i asked for the Wii Fit, and chris knows that i like to dance. but, those things are probably the funnest weight loss tools i've found yet!

i've created a 20 minute yoga and strength training routine *that i still haven't actually done* that seems fun. all the other works outs have been pretty cool. and, i hurt the next day, so that's good, yes? and last night, after realizing that i might have to be in front of about 100 people in a pretty dress quite soon, i did about 25 minutes of ab and arm work outs. it hurts to do anything today.

oh! and i started a calorie counting journal yesterday. i ate about 1500 calories, and burned about 200 yesterday. did you know that the wraps at Chik-Fil-A has about twice as many calories as their chicken nuggets??? i know!

it's all pretty tedious. but, i guess hard work is where the difference lies. here's to a healthier 2011!

there's truth. then there's truth.

it's true!! i really do suck at blogging!

ps... thank you, marisa for pointing out that i haven't blogged in 283092830923.2 years.

anywho, i was dripping sweat buckets in class tonight. i remembered to drink lots of water today, and even though it was raining and i was stuck in traffic on my way home, i didn't have to pee. well, as much. i think my body is getting used to all that water.

i don't know if i weigh any less, as i'm scared of scales. did i ever mention that last semester we started a "biggest loser" in my MSW program? well, we extended it twice because it seems that we aren't very good at losing weight. lets hope that we're better at helping people and society.... but, my pants all fit better. and i went down to a size 8 at american eagle.

however... i was measured for my bridesmaid dress last week. (my dear friend, nancy, who i've known my whole life, *really*, asked me to be in her wedding next march). back to my story. so, i was measured as 16 chest, 18 waist, 12 hips.

really?!?! am i really that huge of a cow?? nothing against cows. i love them. especially the little baby ones. but, i mean, come on!!!

so, i ordered a 16. did i mention that i'm down to a size 8 jean?

yeah. i don't know what size i am. and i know that wedding junk runs small, and not all companies have the same sizing chart, but really. talk about wanting to cry! then i proceeded to eat sushi after to make me feel better.

*besos*

drink enough???

did you know that you're supposed to drink half of your body weight in ounces everyday?? seriously. that's a ton of water.

today at school we had a meeting with an accreditor for the MSW program. during this meeting i was sitting next to my super cool friend marisa, when we looked up to see sheryl *another super cool friend* and her eternal supply of water bottles. okay, so maybe it was only 1 big one and 3 little ones. but she was on her way to get another water bottle! and, i swear she only had like 2 bottle when we got there.

either way, i realized that i need to add another thing to my list of what i need to do. DRINK MORE WATER!

well, i did. i had 4 bottles today. and i don't know that i can handle it. i mean, really. during field seminar *which is pretty sucky, by the way* i had to get up like 5 times to go pee. okay, maybe i just went twice during class and once after class. but, i was pretty much dying to get into the house after my 1 hour drive home.

however, in my cardio class tonite *which kicked my butt, by the way* i felt really good. and now, my head doesn't hurt. and actually still feel pretty fantastic.

but that leads me to think about the Living Water, and how that satiates more than my body. it satiates my soul.

Jesus said to her, "Everyone who drinks the of this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks of the water that I give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up eternal life."
John 4:13 & 14

so you see Jesus is, like, the perfect water. because, as i totally proved today, the water i drink makes me have to pee. then i get thirsty and drink more. and the cycle perpetuates itself. but with Christ, the filled doesn't go away. and that, my friends, is Awesome!

i kinda like this. oh, i'm going on a tangent now. if my needing to lose weight gets me to read my Bible more and seek Christ's word more.. then hey! bring on the muscle pain and salads!

*besos*

i ordered a teriyaki plate for lunch today...

does it matter that i ate more of the salad that the rice and chicken? or that i tried really hard to scrape the sauce??? at least when i came home, chris and i went for a 2 mile walk, and then had Subway for dinner. i didn't even put cheese or mayo on the sandwich!! oi vey....

let me start with this...

for God gave us a spirit not of fear, but of power and love and self-control.

2 Timothy 1:7

when i was around 21 or 22, i started having these crazy panic attacks. it was horrible. i can still remember the very first one. my mom had me look up this verse, and it comforted me. but you know, i'm still scared of everything. even though i know that through Christ, i don't have a spirit of fear.

so, i guess it's the same with my self-control. i try! but, you know, i'm sinful. we all are. you know that dinner i had? i'm hungry. i'm trying really hard not to eat anything right now. and you know what's stopping me? the fact that i have to take those pills before i go to bed. not my desire to lose weight or to be healthy, but the reminder of my health concerns. why does the brain always function so retroactively??

if i had more self-control, maybe i wouldn't be here. maybe the real issue is that i want too much control and forget that God is really the one who controls me. maybe that's what i need to remember.

*besos*

it has come to my attention that i pretty much suck at blogging...

mostly, it's because i really don't feel like talking about school on a blog.

so i have something else that i need to talk about.

my quest.

i need to lose weight.

yeah, we all do. i know, i know. but i really need to. my life, the future of my family depends on it. really. i mean, one day, hopefully in the not so distant future, i might be privileged enough to become a mother. on the way there though, i'll have to be an incubator. i need to be a healthy incubator.

but really, i want to be healthy. my whole adult life i've struggled with my weight. and, you know, it's really frustrating. i'm not huge, but i have that annoying muffin top in certain pants (and skirts!). my blood pressure and cholesterol is elevated, and i'm on meds. i'm 27! i really shouldn't be here!

so, tonight in my Body Sculpting Workout class, i decided that this would be the new journey in which you all could join me on. it might not be fun all the time, but in my true leilani fashion, i have a goal and a plan on how to get there.

1. i will try to be in bed by 11pm every night
2. i will work out 3-4 times a week (which shouldn't be too hard because i'm paying for classes, and you know i'm getting my money's worth!)
3. i'm going to lay off the chips, pasta, rice, teriyaki (no!)... pretty much everything i know is bad.
4. i will eat more fruit and vegetables
5. i will work diligently on my school work on order to finish assignments early, so that i won't be up until 3am the night before things are do

for now, i think i'm doing pretty well. but, i count it starting now. so, i will try to blog each day, so that everyone will be able to keep tabs on me, and keep me accountable to what i said i was going to do.

*besos*