Wednesday, August 27, 2008

VBS Day 2... am i really getting through to them?

there were 102 people at church last night!! that's a lot!! it was a really good turn out...

however, behind the scenes, it was a very frustrating day. again, dinner got started late... the women thought there wasnt going to be enough food, so they were freaking out... but wouldn't you know it... there was food left over!

anywho, i've said this a million times... and i'll say it again... i never want to be a teacher. i may not know what i want to do, but i don't want to teach. nothing against teachers, i love them (4 of my 5 bridesmaids are teachers! they're great!)... i just don't want to teach. but, i have come to realize that God always seems to want me in that position. so, i go with the flow, and do my best while there...

but, i was so frustrated with my high school class. i've never been a fan of teaching anything between the ages of 11-18.... they are just really annoying. but, i din't realize how selfish and self serving they can be. i was disgusted at various times yesterday.

we were talking about service, and serving out friends. first, they didn't really understand how the 4 guys who carried their friend through a roof to see Jesus did anything special for him. i may have been explaining the story wrong... but i think they are just teenagers. i feel like things go it one ear, and out the other... but i digress... so, after trying to get them past that hurdle, i decided to ask the call to come up with a list of how to encourage their friends and how to be better friends to them.

the first response was "this is stupid! why am i going to make a list on how to encourage my friends? i'm not going to walk around and see how many things i can cross off!" so, i told them that wasn't the point. i said, the point is to see how we can encourage our friends in their lives, with there their problems, and how we can help them." so then i ask, "tell me how you can be a better friend to your friends."

and i go tht best answer ever.... "i'm already the best friend anyone can have... i don't need to do anything to better." i almost killed people.... i was that upset with them. then they go on to complain that there is no reason for the class, they don't need to learn how to serve people... can i just say, i felt like such a failure.

it made me wonder... am i really getting through to them? my heart breaks to think that i have such an amazing opportunity to talk to them about Jesus, and nothing is being captured. i'm the only person in the room who understands this. and, i don't know how to change it. i can talking to chris about it and he made me realize that i wasn't the one who was going to make the change in them, God is. but it's still so frustrating. these kids have such a huge capacity to do things, and they just waste it away!

pray that my high school kids will get to know Jesus better.

*besos*

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Aw...don't sweat it. I would want to kill 'em too. That's teenagers for you unfortunately. At least you know what you don't want your own kids to end up like haha Keep it up! I'm praying for you!